Firstly let me say hello and welcome to my blog…
Most of you probably know me from my music and so let me thank you for listening to my songs! If you are a fan / a subscriber / a facebook page liker / a twitter follower / a social media stalker or even better someone who has recently come down to one of my gigs and liked what you heard enough to find me on here, then let me thank you so much! I don't often talk about this on social media platforms or on stage but I am truly, deeply grateful and thankful to you and your support! This is a funny old game and I am so pleased when people show support! You are all the best! And if you haven't already then please join the mailing list and subscribe to my stuff to keep up to date with all thats going on!
If you are new here though and you don't know who I am or what I am on about then please let me explain...
(Warning: Life Story coming up!)
All my life I wanted to be a singer. When I was 3 my dad went to Glastonbury and I sat and watched it on the TV trying to find my dad in the crowd. Shock that I didn't manage to spot him, but I did manage to catch Pulp headline the Pyramid Stage on the Saturday and Oasis headline on the Friday! (Obviously I watched them on highlights, my mum didn't let me stay up that late!) Jarvis Cocker and the rest of Pulp's set changed my life. I wanted to be Jarvis Cocker so badly I used to dance round our living room singing about having peoples babies and wearing pink spandex outfits! When all the other girls used to pretend to be one of The Spice Girls in the school playground, I was pretending to be Jarvis or Brett Anderson or Liam Gallagher. It worked out alright, if they wanted to play 'lets put on a Spice Girls concert' I'd just end up being the support act and get to do a few Pulp numbers.
The older I got my music taste grew and grew. I was heavily in to Frank Sinatra as a 7 year old and would watch all the old MGM films he did with my grandma. Still to this day won't watch 'From here to Eternity' as I can't possibly watch a film where Frank dies!!!! No way! By the time I started Secondary School I was a huge George Michael fan, much to the annoyance of my brother. I remember over hearing him talking to my mum just before I started school, about how I would be bullied for being so obsessed with Wham! and dressing like and even being able to quote one of the worlds biggest gay icons at the age of 9! I did get a bit bullied by my obsession with George but that was not a patch on my obsession with Joe Strummer.
Joe Strummer died when I was 10. I remember exactly where I was when we found out like it was yesterday. It was just before Christmas and my mum got a phone call telling her to put the radio on, the broadcaster (Robert Elms) was crying in to the microphone that Joe Strummer was dead. My mum cried all over Christmas. I didn't really know that much about Joe at that time to be honest. I knew my brother was called Joe after him, I knew he was a punk rocker and I knew he sang London Calling but that was about it. So I got digging and went through my parents old records and threw myself in to discovering music.
Around about this time I bought my first guitar. My dad got it for me from a little shop in the back streets of Harrow called Harrow music. I started writing on it straight away. I never really bothered to learn covers, they didn't really interest me. At 14 I started playing on the local open mic scene which is hard when you are 14 as you aren't really old enough to be in a pub. After about a summer playing the same local pubs a band asked me to support them at a rock n roll night, so i did! With that band I played all the local venues and had lots of fun, my confidence growing and growing over time!
I left school and went to music college in Camden Town, London. It was great fun, we would play and rehearse all day and sometimes gig in the evening. However my confidence did drop a lot at college, I went on to my course as a songwriter, I wasn't a guitarist or a singer I was in the middle, so I never felt like I could fit in to a group musically. I left and chose not to go on to music uni where as everyone else did. Ever since then I have gigged around and out of London, recorded songs, gone on the radio, on the TV, had 2 residences, played festivals, toured abroad, been a support act, featured on tracks, started a youtube channel and released 3 EP's and 2 singles.
This isn't an easy career path theres no doubt about that! With venues constantly closing down and music not selling you've got to be mad to do it! I have been signed and dropped 3 times!! Thats loads! And each time its the worst feeling in the world! But you have to keep going! I don't want to play covers! I like writing originals and playing gigs and going in and recording and releasing but it hard work! But you can't knock it cause being on stage is the best feeling in the world! I am so incredibly lucky to have done as much as I have and have had the opportunity to do it! And I must not forget to say the most incredibly supportive family in the whole world! I recently realised that the industry isn't that same as it was when Jarvis Cocker was dancing around on the Pyramid stage. The internet is such a huge part of music now and therefore records and physical copies of music just don't sell anymore! This just means my journey (sorry for the cringey word) to the top will just be different to his! For example, at the beginning of The Smiths could you imagine Morrissey "tweeting" about being in the dressing room at The Roxy, or David Bowie setting up a "vlog" or even worse Joe Strummer trying to get #TheClash "trending"?! No me neither but needs must and so we have to do it now.
I do truly believe that music TV shows (x factor, britians got talent and the voice…) are all really killing the industry, not just the internet. It is cruel to judge someone on such a huge platform. Some people who audition are very young too and I think it is cruel to watch their dreams crash down around them. I know lots of people who have auditioned and even performed further on in the competition and thats up to them, but I don't think its a very good idea for me. I can't imagine Liam Gallagher would have got through back in the 90's so why should I bother?! ( Not that I'm comparing myself to Liam!)
So…! Thank for reading (if you've made it this far) I hope it was interesting and there aren't too many spelling mistakes! And most of all thank you for supporting, hopefully one day I'll be the next Beyonce, though to be honest i'd be equally as happy being the next Jarvis Cocker!
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